"I don’t want answers, I want the ache. Truth ain’t given — it’s what you make."

“We do not receive wisdom, we must discover it for ourselves, after a journey through the wilderness which no one else can make for us...” — Marcel Proust

Religion is a vivid example of this. So many people follow the gospel, obey the rules, discipline themselves with scripture — yet in reality, they’re hypocrites. Morality without lived experience is just performance.

It’s useful to have guidance, sure — especially for kids. But if we don’t also teach them to think, to question, to walk their own wilderness… we just create obedient parrots. Not wise humans.

I’ve absorbed so much self-help knowledge over the years. Books, videos, podcasts — all of it. And yet, most of it just sits there. I can talk about growth, but living it? That's harder. Sometimes even talking about it feels fake.

I’ve heard that 5-MeO-DMT can cause awakening. But how can I be wise enough to use it, if I haven’t even earned my wisdom yet? Even mentioning it feels like trying on someone else’s enlightenment.

This song is about that gap — the space between knowing and being. Between quoting truth… and living it.