"I thought I was above, but I’m just beyond. Searching for a tribe where I can respond."

Above or Beyond? was born out of a conversation with my partner about Toastmasters—a group meant to build confidence, foster connection, and encourage expression. But for me, it triggered something unexpected: a deep discomfort. Not with the people, not even with the format—but with myself in that setting.

Why did I feel so out of place when others felt inspired? Why did I silently judge speeches as shallow while offering nothing myself? Was I just arrogant? Or was I starved for something deeper?

This song is an honest reflection of that tension—between belonging and standing apart, between craving depth and hiding behind theory. It’s about realizing that sometimes we label others as "sheep" not because they are, but because we’re afraid we’ve lost the map to our own voice.

The title “Above or Beyond?” asks a painful question I had to sit with: Am I simply looking down on others from a place of ego? Or am I reaching for something that hasn't yet found its shape in the room?

There’s no clear answer. Just the song.